Friday, December 21, 2007

happy xmas!!!

Hello all!!!! Well, I did promise to keep u all updated… well, I’m going on leave from work soon… I actually have 4 days and I’m taking it at the end of the year so I start back at work on the second day of the New Year. To me, it has seemed as if though time has really flown by and a lot has happened this year. I met a lot of new people and I went through new experiences, most good and some bad. I’ve never had so much going on this year than I have with any other, but looking back I’m surprised I made it through and survived. Honestly, the last 5 months of this year has been my happiest of all… and no, I’m not talking about a guy!! =D It’s just that I finally knew where I could fit in and prove the best of me to people, I’m glad that all the hardships that I had went through was worth it. It has taught me to be strong and determined. I know I sound like a crazy or deranged person here but to me, I learnt a lot this year and I value all that has happened.

Do you have a New Year’s Resolution?!? I don’t think I’ll have one for the next year, they don’t seem to work… but I do hope next year will be an even better year for me with loads of partying and fun action or even a guy maybe? ;) hahahaha… one can only wish I say and I hope I don’t sound desperate, because I’m not… just want some fun with no strings attached… =)

Moving on to other things, Christmas is near and I won’t be spending it in the office!!! Yay!!!! Actually, I’m looking for a good party for the New Year; I wanna go out, dance, drink and have some fun. I don’t know of any parties that are going on, but if any of you know if there is any parties like this going, please do tell me!!!! I want to end my year with a great party, good drinking and dancing. Hahahaha… I want something new this year. Like some people they want to spend it with their loved ones, I think this year I just wanna meet new people, make new acquaintances and go silly or something. I think I’m at a point in my life where I just want to let loose and get some fun action…. Hahahah I think I think too much =P …. Hahahahah… I’m really silly aren’t I?!?

Well people, I think this is my last post for this year. So Happy Christmas and I wish you all a prosperous New Year ahead!!!! That’s me, signing out… bubyez <33

xoxo,

KeL <33

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

first week of work~~~

Hey all!! Time for another long update =) First and foremost, my most sincerest apologies to Dirah. I’m really, really sorry that I did not attend your sister’s wedding, even though I was expected to come… things changed overnight for some people. The reason why I could not attend Dirah’s sister wedding was because my sister’s boyfriend lost his father the day before so I had to accompany my sister to KB to pay our respects to his father. My sister’s boyfriend is very strong willed even with his great loss. Heads up to him…

Latest updates with me… hmmm~~~ I went to the beach with some of my former workmates on the 12/8… no pictures to show because we did not take any… I think it was because of the heat… I was so tensed from the night before that I could not sleep due to the noodle crisis that we had earlier on =) but overall, I had good fun and I got my cheeks really burnt, I looked like a lobster =P… and oh yeah I was given a big lo-down on what has been happening in the office. My former officer, Lillian likes to rub it in to the big boss that she made a big mistake of letting me go… and she did it in front of the big boss too!!! Hahahaha… I really miss all of them excluding my big boss =). Then one of the ladies said to her manager that I actually got the job at HSBC and that I’m really well paid there… hahhahahah… to be honest… I DID get the job!!!! =D and yes, I’m paid much more at HSBC.

I reported for work officially on the 13/8, I was a nervous wreck!! A lot of the staff there commented that I look so much like my sis and when I told them that she was my sister, they were like “No wonder!!!” Oh yeah, I do not work in the same building as my sister, I work in Jerudong… so its much more closer to home =) In my first day, I was taught a couple of things, I even did a bit of filling so it was not too bad. My second day was ok I think, it was just normal, the third day I was really busy, I practically all over the place, if I’m not upstairs, I’m downstairs plus I was attached to the office assistant, just in case she goes away. On my fourth day, I actually came to work at 10 because before that I had my driving law test… yeah I’m finally taking my license and it’s at my own expenses. So if all goes well, I’ll be buying a new car by either the end of the year or early next year. I’m planning to get the Mitsubishi Lancer, not the new one but the one before the new one was launched. Oh speaking of new cars, we have two new car additions to the garage! My sisters got new cars; Katherine, the teacher got a silver Toyota Corolla and Kathleen, the one who works in HSBC got a red Suzuki Vitara. So the next car, which will be mine will be a white Mitsubishi Lancer I think… ok enough side tracking, back to my fourth day, I actually fell down near the lift on the 3rd floor of my building, I actually work on the second floor… I was so embarrassed when one guy said to me from his desk “Ok ko kah?” and I said yeah, I was too afraid to look at anyone, he actually asked me twice… hahahaha. Well I just laughed it off, I fell because my flip flops got caught on the stepping so yeah hahhahahah… my fifth day, some of my colleagues made jokes with me and I finally cracked my first joke in front of my officer. She actually asked me to go take a document back from upstairs and when I did she asked me to give it to this guy who happens to be behind her. So as I gave it to him I said, “Safu, bercharge kali ni ah” and my officer laughed out loud and she said “Wah!!! Pandai ia sudah” and I just laughed. My boss is really nice; everyone is just really nice, friendly and helpful. I really like and enjoy my job so I think I’ll be in HSBC for a very long time =)

hullo~~~

Hullo!!!! It’s been a while since I’ve updated both of my blogs… well I have been busy at work. Let’s just say that work has taken over my life! =) I’m now back because our canteen now has wireless!!!! Yay!!!! It’s now December and it seems as if though the time has really flew by. It was just like yesterday I left school for a job and now we it seems as if though we’re really approaching the next year really fast. Hmm~~~ time really does fly eh. Enough of that, let me update you on wat’s been going on with me. Well, I think 2 Sundays ago, I bumped into Nubli!!!! It’s been a while since I’ve last seen him; I think it was about 2 years ago. The first thing he did was he pinched my cheeks… I was like “woah, dun pinch my cheeks!” it was a good thing for me I did not wear make up. That encounter was brief because my friend took me away. Nubs if ur reading this, dun pinch my cheeks again ok.

Oh I’ve decorated my office for Christmas, let’s just say I wanted them to experience the Christmas that they never had. I’ve even hanged snowflakes from the ceiling. A lot of people like it. I think I’ll take a pic of it soon. Work so far is a bit crazy, my boss has decided to give me a phone on my table… I didn’t have one before this so now I have one to entertain queries from the other staff. My boss was actually contemplating of giving me a cordless phone so I can answer it while I’m in the filling room… that’s like even crazy. But for now they will have to settle for me having the normal phone.

I think this is it for now, I’ll post up what happened during my first week of work. Bubyez =)

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

My last day of work once again

Hellew all =). My last day of work for the second time was on the 20th July 2007 and it was a happy day for me. The day started off when I was about to go down to the filling room. In the hallway outside my office, I met my boss, she saw me from the lift and she said hi to me... I decided to carry on walking to the lift, she then blocked my path, wherever I turned, she kept blocking me then she said, “I need to talk to you”. I then went in, and this is how the conversation went.

BIG BOSS : Today is your last day right?

ME : *all smiles* Yes

BIG BOSS : Are you really leaving today?

ME : Yes

BIG BOSS : Did you really quit school?

ME : Yes

BIG BOSS : You’re looking for a permanent position right?

ME : Yes

BIG BOSS : What is it that you want out of this bank?

ME : *leans forward* Career progression

BIG BOSS : I can’t promise you that in this department as you know it is very hard for me to make some of them permanent. Like last year, Zai was offered permanent and just recently, Rosie.

ME : OK… *Thinking in head: What is she trying to get at?*

BIG BOSS : I can’t assure you that I can give you a permanent job by the end of this year.

ME : Actually, I sat for a test in HSBC and I even know my test results. I’m just waiting a call for an interview.

BIG BOSS : Oh… but its not like they will call you so soon, so in the mean time, I want to buy your services and if you get that call, and you want to leave the next day I’ll let you go, at least you can earn something while waiting.

ME : I’m still leaving

BIG BOSS : * looks at me pitifully* I really need you and I rely on you.

ME : I’ll think about it and I’ll give you an answer by the end of the day

BIG BOSS : Thank you, think about it and make sure you see me at the end of the day ok.

ME : Ok, I’ll think about it.

There was more to that conversation; she made it sound as if though I will not get that job at HSBC. I am very determined to get that job and I will, its just the matter of time, both the big boss and the officer is on leave till the end of the month, so I’ll probably get a call by early august and I do not think that it is such a long wait and besides, I get to relax a bit and be a DVD junkie, for the next week or so.

After that, I asked my sister from HSBC to give me a call; I really needed to consult someone. There were plenty of questions running through my head; should I just stay till the end of the month? Should I just go? If I stay, doesn’t that mean that she wins? But one thing was for sure, I am not going to stay. After I consulted my sister, I knew what the answer would be and nothing will move me of my decision.

I lingered around the office, laughing and making jokes with Rosie and Talib. I do not have pictures this time round because I just didn’t want to take any; it would bring back all the memories and would make it harder. I had lunch with Rosie, we talked a lot. And after lunch I had a bit of excitement… hehehe… nothing big but it was something ;). When Rosie and I got back to the office, it was about 2 p.m. and as I was about to go down, the cute, tall, Chinese looking and bottle framed glasses wearing DHL guy was in the hall way, I automatically went back in and held the door for him. He then smiled, I stood at Talib’s desk, and I thank Talib for not being there at the time… heheheh… The DHL guy then puts his clipboard on the desk, and he said “Tulis nama kita ah”, I grabbed Talib’s pen and wrote my name on the paper “KeL”. At that point, he was actually on one of his knees… heheheh… romantic right?!? But it is not what it seem to be, his bag was on the floor, he takes a peek of my name and says, “Oh, KeL” he then unzips his bag and puts the package on the desk, and zips his bag up, he then stands up and said “Ma Seh (short form for Terima Kasih) and I just smiled at him. I could have actually gone out and go on the lift with him because I was headed to the first floor, who knows more action right? But no… I decided to stay on and make Rosie jealous. That whole time, Rosie kept peering at me from her desk and when he left, she went “eeehhh… Kambang eh, I don’t want to talk to you” hahhahahah we then made jokes about the guy, if one of us were to have sized him up in the lift…hahaha… he is so cute! I should have just said to him, you’re cute but I didn’t, I let that fish go I guess but it was good =). The day dragged on and it was almost time for me to face my big boss for the last and final time.

I then filled out my claim sheet and put it on my other officer’s desk which is beside my big boss. I then sat on of her chairs across her. She was actually calculating something at that time and so I just waited. By the time she was done she smiled at me and this is how everything went.

BIG BOSS : And so?

ME : I would like to know, why are you only offering me now?

BIG BOSS : Well, at that time, you seemed unsure. But now, you quit school and you still quit your job, then you must be waiting for something. So that is why I offered you, I really need you for the retrieval project, even if it’s just for a month.

ME : Oh… Ok

BIG BOSS : So are you still leaving?

ME : Yes

BIG BOSS : Why?

ME : Honestly, this is how I felt. That day when I came to you and after we talked, I felt heartbroken and hopeless after what you have told me. Mr. H, offered to talk to you but I said no because I should just carry on resigning.

BIG BOSS : Oh I see, actually when people like me talk to our workers, we hope that they are on the same wavelength as us but it seems that you got the wrong idea. You are not hopeless…

ME : Ok… *Thinks in head: I didn’t say I was hopeless, I said I felt hopeless. Was she not listening to me?*

BIG BOSS : You are a good worker. You seem to finish things ahead of the time that we set. And you are very accurate and you are responsible when given a task. It’s a complement you know…

ME : Ah, ok…

BIG BOSS : So that is why I’m still holding on to resignation and I have not given it to HR.

ME : I actually gave my resignation to HR. And the reason why I gave you one months’ notice was so that you would find someone new which I can personally train myself. I also did not want to find you someone new because I’m afraid that the person cannot give you what I can.

BIG BOSS : Oh no, we won’t blame you if that person you recommended messes up everything. If a person is given a responsibility, they should know better and be responsible.

ME : Oh ok

~ Big Boss actually yaps on about a person in the bank who recommended her their not so great part timer and that within 3 months he would be jobless and stuff ~

BIG BOSS : So are you going to stay?

ME : *all smiles* Nope, I will still be leaving.

BIG BOSS : *stares at me speechless and pitifully*

ME : *gives my biggest smile ever*

~ There was a pause during that time, an uncomfortable one too ~

BIG BOSS : Ok lah, it’s your decision and I can’t make you change your mind. So now, we would have a lot of backlog to clear up.

ME : *laughing* Well, I have nothing to worry about, it’s not my problem.

BIG BOSS : *holds out her hand* thank you KeL for your service, I want to wish you good luck with HSBC.

ME : *shakes Big Boss hand* Thank you very much.

And so that was how things went and after that I laughed and joked around with my office mates for a bit before my sister miss called me. My former officer, Lillian, called me up to ask what happened and I told her the whole story. So before I left, I said all my good byes, gave the ladies the necessary hug and kisses and a last hand shake to the men and I salam-ed Jamain, he’s a really nice guy and I was off, leaving the bank and never to return. I felt satisfied for what I said to my big boss, I hope she has learned her lesson to NEVER turn down a good worker or hurt them when she sees one.

And so that is the ending of one of the chapters in my life, a new one will be starting soon. I’m actually going to plan a barbeque picnic at Tutong beach for me and my young ex-colleagues… wait more like close friends, on either the 11th or 12th of August. So we can catch up on things and have a bit of fun… I’m really going to miss them all; all the time I spent getting to know each and one of them… ~sigh~ I’m getting all mushy and stuff here. I’ll just end this here. =) it’s a new beginning for me =). Bubyez… muahz <33

Thursday, July 19, 2007

happy and content =)

Hi all!!! =).Well, I’ve got good news… First of all, my sis found out how I did for my tests at HSBC… I was pretty surprised myself when she told me… I got 79%ile for the English test and for my Math test, I scored a 76%ile!!! I was pretty surprised about the Math test result… I really want this job so badly!!! My sis says I have to wait for the guy to call me up… I’ll then have to go through the interview, which I cannot screw up! ~oh my! I’m getting nervous even before I got the call ;) As for my last day at the bank, it will be tomorrow and I’m pretty happy about it. All that I have gone through, all the hard work, stress, pressure and load of crap I went through is finally over!!! Yay!!! :D For sure, I’ll the one celebrating and being all happy and jolly about it! My work at this bank is done and its time to move on… I’m moving on to better things in life =) and also I think I’m destined to work in a bank… For some reason, I really like what I’m doing and if I get that job at HSBC, which I must get, I hope things will be better there and I hope I’ll not just like my job but love it as well =) I sound like a psycho lah!!! But this is how happy I am at the moment =D

Oh before I go off… I just give a BIG THANK YOU to CT…. thanks for the support you have given me and the pep talk that you gave me yesterday! You’re one of the friends I treasure the most =) thanks CT!!!! And also, DIRAH… thank you for giving me encouragement and asking me to apply at other places =) you don’t have to worry about me… I’m doing really good at the moment, actually I’ve never been more happier =) I have good things ahead of me =) Thanks Dirah for the encouragement… you’re a good friend <33

Aight that is all for now… I’ll update soon =) bubyez… muahz <33

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

loong weekend

Hellew all!!! Time for another update =). Well plenty had happened over the looonnnggg weekend. Mine actually started on Friday night. Friday night, the bank’s recreational club had a movie night at the Empire cinema, it was for Harry Potter. I actually was not a member of the recreational club but everyone (when I mean everyone, it’s the young ppl in my office) asked me to join even though I’m like leaving soon. So I joined the club, got a voucher and we were all looking for extra vouchers that we could get from the senior staff so we don’t have to pay the non member price which is $8.50 compared to $3 for members. So yeah, at the end we managed to get 10 vouchers and I was put in charge of redeeming them. That Friday I took half the day off because I had a written test at HSBC! I was very thrilled. There was 3 test; an English test, a Math test and a personality test. The Math test was not what I thought it would be, it was one of those questions where you use the graphs and tables to find the answer. So it was not too bad, we were just given a time limit to do the test and I think most of us did not finish it. I just hope I get the job there… I so need a new job! Ok back to the night at the Empire, our movie was supposed to start at 7.20 and I was there at about 6.30++ and I managed to get seats where we wanted. So I waited in the lobby with other bank staffs. So we all watched the movie and after, only Rosie, Azre and I hanged out at the parking lot… it was fun =)

On Saturday, well I was home the whole morning, and in the afternoon when we went to pick up my mum, we sent one of our sisters off to swimming and then we went shopping. I wanted to experiment on a new recipe… actually more like Amie’s mum recipe, her Macaroni and Cheese… Did you know that finding Kraft’s Miracle whip is hard?!? So yeah we went shopping for a bit then we went home… not too interesting eh? So I made my macaroni and cheese… it think it was good, it went well I think. The only problem was that the cheese which I diced into small cubes was a bit too big but it was yummy.

Then on Sunday, my sis and I went for a KB road trip… well it started pretty late due to unforeseen reasons. So I’ll post up pictures for that bcoz pictures speak more words… heheheh =). And also other pics that I should have posted up! Enjoy.


me, rosie and raie at Empire for Harry Potter

at amie's housewarming some time ago
me and raie at Empire, waiting for the rest to arrive
some monument in kb
tea pot monument in kb
on our way back, the skies
me!!!
me and my sis somewhere on the highway
my sis in kb walking to mum's
tea pot monument again
me on the buggy ride some sunday ago
my sis driving
the perayaan stalls in kb


me and my sis on our way to kb
me eating chicken kueh teow and ABC in kb... total $2.30
me in TPH sometime ago
my sis with the same food in kb


Saturday, July 7, 2007

UPDATES!!!

Hellew~~ Well plenty had happened. First of all, I went to Amie’s housewarming on the 9th and met Lionel, Amie’s Darling for the first time… heheheh. Amie, if you’re reading this, here is what I think of him : I found him very “straight”, what I mean by that is that he sees the world in his own way, but I’m sure he might be different with Amie. I also found him a bit corny and funny when he asked Siang to do the sportsman thing… Overall, I can see that he is a very sweet, nice, polite and well mannered person… Oh Amie… It is very obvious that he is SO in LOVE with u… I think you’ve got something real good going on ;)

Moving on to that same week, my dad went for chemotherapy, I thought chemo was usually laser based, instead the one that my dad had was drips, pretty interesting… well if u are wondering how’s my dad, he back to his normal self =).

Now let’s move on to work, well I’ve been going back to work since the 8th and it’s not too bad; I actually miss working… ~~sigh~~ them good ol’ working days. At work, I’ve gotten closer to some people like Rosie and I also have fun hanging out in the office when it’s almost time to leave. Actually, the person in charge of me doing my tasks, Rosie told me that if I did not come on the 8th itself, they would replace me!! Could you believe it?!? Replace KeL?!? ~HMPH!!!~~ The nerve of them, I have already decided to really quit my job. It’s not because of the replacement thingy, if that is what you think it is because they can never replace KeL, not that I’m blowing my own trumpet or anything but they just can’t and you will know why soon. 14th of June was the day I handed in my resignation, and when the manager of my department read my letter she just smiled… now what is that supposed to mean?!? Then on Friday, when I went to my officer’s desk to fill in my part timer sheet ( psst..my officer sits beside the big boss) she saw me and we had a brief conversation, it went like this :

BIG BOSS : Hi KeL

ME : Hi Boss ß I changed the name to.. Err… well you know why

BIG BOSS : (smiling) I got your letter and I already read it

ME : (nervously) ah… ok

BIG BOSS : But I don’t want to talk about it now

ME : (feeling relieved) oh ok

~ Then as I was about I to walk away

BIG BOSS : When do you start your second year?

ME : (in my head “oh crap!!!”) Err.. next year pulang, but after this I’ll be on

attachment for six months and I will not be coming to work.

BIG BOSS : So where will you be?

ME : Ummm… I’m not too sure because it’s up to the school to put us where

They wish and most of the choices that are given are mostly government

offices.

BIG BOSS : oh I see, I’m letting you go because I don’t want to kacau you study.

ME : (smiling) oh I see..

~ There was a pause and when I decided to walk away

BIG BOSS : Tapi kan, if you rasa boring kat rumah nanti, you can come back here

and work ok.

ME : (in my head “I knew it!!!) Oh okie then.. Thank you

BIG BOSS : Okie, thank you KeL.

ME : smiles and then I walked away

So now you see why they can’t replace me, its not that I’m not grateful for the job that I have but I don’t feel as if though they know what I go through. I like the part where I work alone in a safe and at times people come to ask me for documents, its just that they think that the volume that we are given are small, but its not, it’s a lot and it never ends. In the whole month of December last year, I worked my ass off to file all the overdue documents and when I left them to go back to the institution, everything went hancur!!! There were so many overdue documents!!! So yeah, the guy I work with, Azre… well, he’s a bit worried if I leave, there will be more pressure on him to complete filling. And if you are wondering when is my the last day at work… it will be on the 20th July, I think now I can let go. The last time I quit, it was the day before orientation at the institution began, and I guess it was a sudden change for me as I really enjoyed working at that time and I applied at the institution just to try my luck, and I got in. So I guess I was not ready to let go then, but now I am =)

Well, my results came out on the 21st and guess what?!? I FAILED!!!! Hahahah~~~ what luck eh?!? I decided not to continue on because I have no passion for studying… I bet some of you reading out there would say “Sayang jua, ia ani”. My decision for doing so is that if I am going to spend another year and what happen if I don’t make it through? So I think that this is the best path for me. I have my working experience and I can always take it elsewhere. 2 people had said that they want to cubit me because of my decision.

So on the 22nd I went to my boss to tell her I had failed and that I want to continue working with them. I plucked up all my courage and braveness just to do this. I’ll just pick up the key points in the whole conversation because she went round in circles.

ME : Hi Boss, I need to tell you something….

BIG BOSS : Hi KeL, Yes what is it?

ME : Ummm... I don’t think I’ll be continuing my 2nd year at the institution.

BIG BOSS : OH?? Why not?

ME : I failed my first year…

~ Big Boss then yaps away about some stuff and then…

BIG BOSS : What do you plan to do?

ME : Errr… I dunno… get a job maybe, I don’t have the passion for studying

BIG BOSS : Eeeeee… sayang u ani

BIG BOSS : Well at the moment I don’t have anything for you, maybe I can arrange

Where you can be half day in this department and the other half to

another department.

ME : (felling hopeless) oh I see..

~ I was feeling very devastated.

BIG BOSS : You think it over and you tell me what you want to do next; whether you

will continue on with us or go back to school..

So after that I went out lunch with the boys and I was really hopeless… it was like I had a really bad day!!! When I went to babu, I did not know what to eat… in the end I only had 2 roti kuning and cold water!!! That was how devastated I was… makan pun inda dapat!! If you know me, this is not normal. I told my sister that I’m not theirs to keep and her friend who used to work in the bank offered to talk to her, but I said no… tawar udah hati ku. My other sis then picked me up, I told her everything and we jalan-jalan for a bit and then she asked me “What’s wrong with you? Macam nada mood ja”. I then looked at her and said “How would you feel when you have already failed your first year and your boss then says she does not want you around?” she just kept quiet. Over the next few days I kept thinking what I should do and I decided to resign, who knows I might get a better job in another bank because of the experience I have.

The 28th was the day I dropped the bomb on my big boss… I will leave the bank for good. The thing was I was procrastinating the whole week from telling her, I then decided to just tell her. On that day, my big boss was not having a good day because… err… I don’t know why and I don’t care, janji ia kusut berabis. So I went up to her desk and this was how things went. I picked the most important and vital parts =D

ME : Hi Boss, I think I will still be resigning.

BIG BOSS : *looks up at me, sighs and signals me to sit down*

BIG BOSS : So what are you going to do?

ME : Ummm… take time off, figure things out and stuff.

BIG BOSS : You don’t have to actually terminate your contract you know.

ME : I know but I want to.

BIG BOSS : Maybe you can still continue just that you can come a couple hours for

that day and maybe once or twice in a week.

ME : Oh ok…

~ she then yaps away about how I have to reapply back if I still want to work there when I terminate my contract and stuff… she goes on about if I could help her find someone new and then before the conversation ends…

BIG BOSS : You really resigning kah?

ME : (with confidence) YES!!

BIG BOSS : (sighs) Ok I can’t stop you. Good luck in all you do.

ME : (smiling) Thank you

Now, how it feels like being rejected. I practically dangled myself in front of her with a big sign saying “TAKE ME!!!” and what did she do?!? Reject me!!... nah apa tah rasanya! COW!!!! And as for helping her find a replacement, I’m not going to do it… or else what is the bank’s HR for, right?!? And what happens if the person I recommend does not live up to how I work?!? They have to find someone new soon, before I leave. The other officers did beg me to stay but I will not. It goes to show that my big boss does not really know or care about her workers. I may be a part-timer and I have feelings, begging will not do. NOTHING will do. I would not go back because in my big boss eyes, I now know where I stand… and that is I’m just a really small, tiny fish which the big boss is most likely to ignore and chuck away! Yeah, I know I sound bitter, but try being in my shoes, I’m sure you would feel the same, no?

Well, talking about work and all, on the 30th, we had a buffet lunch at Rizqun for our half yearly thingy… I had loads of fun =) loads of laughing and teasing, it was fun. I don’t have pics yet coz it’s with one of my colleague who is now on leave. Will post it up when I get it ok =). And oh.. I watched transformers twice and I have never seen so much action in one movie ~whew~ errr… what else ah? I saw the bank guy I used to like yesterday when I gave him the reports =)… it’s been a while since I’ve seen him and he was quite surprised to see me =)… he still looks cute to me =) heheheh… I’m like all smiles now =) heheheh… if he reads this, I think he would know that I’m referring to him =) and oh, bank guy if you’re reading this… HI!!!! *waves* ^_^. I think that is it for today… bubyez… Muahz <33


Thursday, June 7, 2007

Hellew~~~~

Hellew~~~ Well at the moment i'm in school and i'm just waiting for time to pass =(... I just got my allowance =) that's a good thing i guess...i changed my layout... hehehe.... i dunno wat to say... hmm~~~ i'll post up some pics =)


Some motorbikes in march


me and my lips... hehhehe... i'm so vain =P


Another vain picture of me!!! heheheh... i like the lips one better ;P

my maroon painted fingernails on top of my pen, lappy and my earphones are in the background

Ice-cream!!!!! Traditional old ice cream that me and my sis bought for 50 cents at the fire station where an indian man was selling them =) i was half way through it =D


Birdy in its nest on one of the pillars outside my house


i think that is it for now... i need to by my lappy a new bag!!! might do it one of these days =) bubyez.. Muahz <33

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Its all OVER!!!! ~~

Its finally over~~~ my exams are over!!!! yay!!!! Well loads have been happening since i've last blogged... First of all, my dad was in the hospital for 3 weeks, i've been in and out of the hospital taking care of my dad with my sisters and mum. My dad had an operation, whereby the doctors removed his whole rectum and he cant go to the toilet like a normal person... the doctors said it is cancer and by removing his whole rectum, it would not spread... when we got the results from his cat scan, there are two dots in both of his lungs and so he has to go for chemotheraphy. Well, chemo starts on the 11/7 so hopefully things turn out good... as for the operation he had, he's doing good so no problems there =)

Then there's my exams, i thank God they're over... the last paper was hard!!!! i had a headache while doing the paper... chances of passing... hmmm~~~ very slim i say... but enough of all that, moving on to happier things... I can't wait to go for Amie's house warming thing on saturday night!!! and the theme is t-shirt and shorts!!! heheh... amie ah.... you want to see my funny looking legs ah =P heheheh but i must admit its a cool theme...

My plans for the holidays is to go to work!!! I think i'm a workaholic, its really funny coz, i really miss work and i find that its much more better working than studying. Why u might ask? well if ur working, u are only stressed at that moment when things get rough but after that, say after work, you go home and chill or you just go out and hand out. As for studying, u get stressed all day long and when u finish classes... oh there's assignments, tests and tutorial work to think of!!! ~sigh~~ Needless to say, i like my work, the job does not require me to do much but the volume is a lot and there are deadlines... plus i work alone in a room... i just really miss working... i miss the old people i work with, the new ones are ok but they're not as fun as the old ones i had... =)

i guess this is it... i'll post up pictures soon =)

Saturday, April 28, 2007

Its a saturday...

Hellew all... its a saturday and i'm in school!!!! well, i came to school to hand in our group assignment... and its successful... but the thing is all the other groups have recommendations in their report and we don't have one!!!! To think of it, i don't think our report needs any recommendations... so if we do need one... SCREW THAT!!! i'm in loads of sh*t!!! but hell, i don't care anymore... i'm content with what we have...

I was supposed to do the report a bit earlier last night nut i came home late from work... And work... ohhh... i actually liked work yesterday... i wasn't filling, instead i was asked to take out closed accounts from the file, and being the super woman that i am (heheheh... super woman... prasan eh aku ;) ), i managed to take out a whole month's account closure. it was about 1o pages long... how i did it? i also don't know.... Maybe it was because Azre was not around... he took the day off with chong... but hey, i'll always see them next week no?

There are quite a number of plans tonight... for starters, there's my little niece's birthday which i will not attend because my sister and i want to go out and have some fun... and i plan to get that necklace which i had my eyes on for over a month... i hope its still there... it would complete my whole outfit... and i will finally look hotter!!!! hahahahah

maybe i should post up pictures for now... lemme see what i have....


These are cows in love <33... not that i'm in love or anything =)


And these are my army of lovers... heheheheh... they may not be much but they're something alright.... heheheh =P

I guess this is it for now... will blog more soon and will take more pics as well... bubyez... muahz <33

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

i'm bored~~~

Hey all ~~~ well i'm blogging because i'm bored!!! hahaha... At the moment, i'm opening all of the forwarded email that i have and i got tired of forwarding them and i also flooded 3 person's mailbox so i thought i should just stop forwarding mail.. =) Maybe i should post up pictures eh? yeah, i should... lemme bluetooh it over first... hehehe
well here goes... more pics =)





this is all for now... bubyez <33

Sunday, April 22, 2007

UPDATES!!!


Hellew all... its been a while since i've updated my blog... well... loads have been happening and yeah... Last night i went to the bank's Masquerade Annual Dinner... i had fun but i felt last year's bollywood night was better =) so less talking and more posting up pictures =P

Me at Jerudong Polo Club

Me and Rosie

Shimah, chong and zai


The Adidas-es : Chong, Zai & Azre

Shimah

Hj Tinah, Lillian, Me And Midah after the dinner

Dani and I

The Masquerade was fun, it was not so much of a masquerade because when i went in, about 90% of the ppl had their masks off... so yeah... its not really a masquerade... after everything was done, we all had a department photo at the reception and i hope it looks good... it was taken by a professional photographer with a background so yeah. i think that is it for today... will try to blog more often.. Muahzzz <33

Saturday, April 7, 2007

UPDATES!!!

Hellew.... Well Loads have happened ever since my birthday... and things did turn around for me... for the good =)... that group assignment that we had... it went horribly wrong for them bcoz it was all wrong and one of the girls decided to redo the whole thing. It actually gave me the opportunity to do work with them. It was all good.

Moving to lighter things... I watched Jangan Pandang Belakang last night. It was a cool movie... actually, it was GOOD!!! it got me screaming like crazy in the cinema. I think i managed to scare the guy who was sitting beside me as well... anyways he kept on looking at me and i was covering my ears and my face with both my jacket and hands... you tell me who would not be scared. At the moment i'm on 2 weeks holidays, so i'm enjoying myself and i'm going to work... its been a while since i've been at work... i really miss it. it is fun... at least i'm earning something during the holidays =)... that hard drive and that printer will be mine soon... hehehe

i think that's about it for tonight... will try to post up pics soon =)

Wednesday, March 7, 2007

I'm 20~~~

Hellew all!!!! My birthday was on Sunday and i went out with both of my best friends!!!! It was so much fun =) it felt good to spend my birthday with them =)... We had lunch at Swenson's and then we watched Ghost Rider.... that movie is so cool!!!! Plus the young Nicholas cage was HOT!!!!! I had a lot of birthday messages and some of them were from ppl i didn't really expect. I really appreciate it as some of them took the effort to msg me even though they were far away =) Thanks to all of you, i had a great turning 20 birthday =)



Amie with her permed hair

Us walking around in the mall


Amie & I in the Ford


Our Lunch at Swensen's


Me, posing for Amie

I had lots of fun!!!! Now to post up what i got from Amie =)))

The lovely bday card and book mark

The yummy cheese and chocolate chip cupcakes

Perfume!!!!

I really love all of them and the perfume..... ohhhhh..... it smells good!!!! i'm planning to buy the big bottle!!!! It's one of those scents that you can never get bored of!!!! Well i think this is it for today.... Will be going out with both of them for lunch later.... Bubyez..... Muahz <33

Thursday, March 1, 2007

unexpected

Hellew all... well, the penguinz gave me a surprise yesterday.... they surprised me with a birthday cake... i did not expect it... but they did it...they got me this really yummy chocolate cake. This is how it went... it was our last tutorial and the penguinz told me not to go back first... bcoz we needed to discuss our P.I.A. Then i told one of them that i needed the loo and she said that she will wait for me. So as i was walking down the stairs to the kooperasi, and when they saw me they started singing happy birthday... it was so totally unexpected.... And i really appreciate what they did because it did lift up my spirits =) and i think i'm going to be ok, its jut a phase i'm going through. i think i'm over analyzing things... I'm really grateful that i have friends like them and i really loved the surprise cake =)

i guess this is it for tonight.... bubyez... muahz <33>

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

hmmm~~~

Hellew.... Well a lot has happened.... Firstly, i MISSED JO's flight!!!! Jo, if you are reading this, i'm so sorry!!!! i came a bit too late!!!! SORRY JO!!!! I promise we will hang out in June!!! Maybe it's not meant to be this time around.... =(

My birthday is coming up in a couple of days... One thing for sure is that, i don't want any attention... For the people at the institution, i DON'T want ANY SURPRISES or PRESENTS.... Actually, to be honest, i don't want anything from them.... WHY?!? I really feel that i don't fit in, it does not feel right and its not the same as being with friends that you have. This time around, for my birthday, i don't want anything... i hate surprises and i'm very hard to please. At this point, I feel very down....

Sigh~~~~ i hope things will turn soon.... bubyez... muahzz <33

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Updates...

Hellew.... Its been a while since i've blogged and a lot has happened. I really thank the people who have listened to me because it was good to get it off my chest. Now that i really know what i'm feeling, i really cannot wait till this semester ends, i really want to break away from the people in the institution.... i feel that i don't fit in and that one of them is not to crazy being in group work with me... I guess i should tell you what happen... it may be a small thing but sometimes it starts from little things like these. One of my lecturer decided that she is giving us a web assignment and that we have to give our group member list by the end of the day. Since the institution group only has limited male counterparts, they were not included in our decision making thing. when we have sorted us girls out, then we would split them boys. So us 5 girls "bahsam" and i was supposed to be in a group with one of the girls and a guy. The thing is i am in another group assignment with this girl. In this other group assignment, we are to produce 3 essays with one of them containing 800-1000 words while the other 2 are 600-800 words. This lecturer also told us that if we were to do the 1000 word essay, our marks would be higher.... honestly, i don't care about marks... just as long as the work is done, i'm fine. Me, being nice and kind, i volunteered to do the 1000 word essay as i feel that english is the first language i have spoken and am at an advantage, not because of the marks, no... i don't care... so the other 2 can do the lesser word essay. so back to my story.... we "bahsem" and i was in the same group as this girl... All so sudden, she then says, "NO!!! i want to work with other people".... hmmm~~~ it makes you think, do they actually want me there or not. So the 4 of them discussed by themselves and then i decided that i might as well pull myself out... i then decided that i should do this web assignment with the girl that i'm doing my programming project with... and also pulling 2 other people that are willing to be with us. Since taht girl was absent, i texted her and she said ok. I thank God that there are people who are willing to work with others. And since she knows her way around these assignments, i don't mind working with her because i can learn more and know more. So yeah... i want this semester to end so badly!!!!

I'm moving on and trying to be positive =) Well tomorrow won't be a happy day for me... JO is leaving for Melbourne!!!!! I have not hung out with her nor did i go to her chinese new year open house.... I'm so SORRY Jo!!!! I'm really wrapped up i a whole load of work.... So for tomorrow, i will be sending her off at the airport, its the least i can do. She did tell me that she will be back in JUNE.... That's even better news as i'll be on a one month holiday by then!!!! For Jo, i will be making my special choco cornflakes for her long flight back... i hope that she will like it =)

i guess this is it for now.... bubyez.... Muahz <33

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

It's Valentine's Day <33


Hey all!!!! It's Valentine's Day!!!! Well, earlier this week, i did not realize that today would be Valentine's day.... Nothing much has happened... its not like i do expect anything to happen though =) So far, i came to school late because my dad was worried that no one would be in the institution so he decided to send me instead. In the institution, i wanted to sms my best friends, but when i wanted to i came to realization that i don't have their numbers in my phone. How did this happened? well... it was when my phone memory card decided to go loco on me. so that was how i lost some of them numbers.

During lunch, the penguinz and i decided to find for a good place to eat... we ended up eating at LLF beside under ten in serusop. That was the first time i have eaten anything else other than their cucur keladi. We all had chicken rice.... might i add, it was not too bad, it was very nice. I think that is about it for today... Happy V-Day everyone... bubyez... muahz <33

Monday, February 12, 2007

hellew~~~

First of all, i'd like to say HI!!!! to Metal Chick, thanks for tagging me and congratz on ur blog and your tag board as well =). It's good to "read" that you are doing well =D heheheeheh... The next shout out is for FARID!!!!! Thanks for the testimonial and i would really love it that you would cook my 3 favourite foods for me... That's very sweet =) hehehehehe i'm sure it would taste good =)

Now for some updates, well... ummm... Its been a week since i've blogged or do anything.... Oh my physics-related-subject test.... I didn't do too well... i failed i scored 13/60!!!! How great is that?!? And then during our tutorial, my lecturer asked me a question that i could not answer. I did not know the answer because i did not attend her extra classes... and it was not on purpose... i had a valid MC for 7 days and my head was in a bandage... i can't come to classes looking like a mummy!!!! But hey, some lecturers are like this right?!? Moving on to other news, i had a haircut, it was just to get rid of the split ends i had on my hair. My hair is slightly shorter and my fringe is at another parting. I wanted to cut my hair till it was shoulder lengthed, but i decided not to because i don't want to give people the shock of their lives andi still love my long hair =D hehehehe... i'll probabaly do that next month, if i have the guts =)

Ohhhh.... At the moment i'm obsessed with this chinese song. Its from the sound track from love @ first note and the song is called Kong by Justin Lo.... Although i don't understand chinese, the song sounds good and when i watched the movie, it had deep meaning to it =D heheeheh Oh and the guy whom i think is cute just passed by me.... hehehehe.... he's so cute and tall ~sigh~ another one of my infactuations i suppose =)

I gotta go, lectures will start in 6 mins... will blog again later... Bubyezz... Muahz <33

Tuesday, February 6, 2007

Loads have been happening

Hellew.... well a lot has happened in both my institution life and at home. Well for starters.... i have PLENTY of assignments to complete!!!!! And guess what?!? The due dates for these assignments are in March!!!!! All at different weeks!!!! ~sigh~~~ =( Then there is one assignment which is due one day before my bday!!!! ~double sigh~~~ =( It looks like i'm gonna be really really busy for the next 2 months... I hate all the work that they are giving us... somehow i think its a torture test for all us students to see how well we can endure this assignment torture months =P Oh them lecturers... they like doing things like this.... Well... hmmm~~~ For one of my assignments, i have decided to work with someone else because i want to experience working with someone new.

ohhh.... I am POSITIVELY SURE that i have failed my physics-related-subject test. U wanna know what our lecturer is planning to do? She plans to break some of the tutorial groups and mix us with other tutorial groups.... One of my class mates posed a very logical question "What's the point of separating us?" And yeah... what is the point? what happen if we have friends in the other tutorial groups and we start blabbing even more? Bet she didn't think about that... or what if we have a crush on someone in the other tutorial group? now that's an even bigger distraction... no?!? =P heheheheeheh.... well, i think i'm over analyzing things here... heheheh

i guess this is it for tonight.... will blog soon.... Muahz <33

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Hi All!!!!

This would be me sticking my tongue out to ppl... hehehehe =P

A very ganas version of me

A scared little girl on halloween?


Hellew....I had fun yesterday morning surfing the net and going on that south park website where you can make your own version. I made a lot of south parks version of what i think could represent me and it seems very very cool and i guess i shall post some of them up =) This one on the right is very innocent looking, i really like it. initially, i wanted her to hold a knife which would actually look cool as she seems very deceiving.... heheheheh i guess i'll try that out later myself =P Well if you want to try it out go to this.

Well that's it for now... will blog later =) bubyez... muahz <33

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Such a sad afternoon... =P


OMG!!!!! The institution have really sad afternoons!!!! here are the ppl practsing for national day!!!! so kasian, they only work with fans and pom poms!!!! hahahaha.... thank god i'm not in it.... =) just wanted to make a point... hehehehe

Arrrghhh!!!!

Hellew!!!!! Well, i just had a test and guess wat?!? i did not study for it last night, instead i was out shopping!!!! My allowance and my pay is not out yet but i did some major shopping!!!! I went a little crazy at Baleno!!!! They had 50% discounts and so.... tell me who can refuse such an offer? ehehheeh =P.... not me, i can tell you that!!! I bought a jacket that i really wanted to buy the other day and i'm really really happy that i did not buy it then because it was from $36 to just $18!!!! i am so dead set on going there again sometime this week. Then my sis, her bf and i went to Cartino Sonea and my sis bought me a pair of sandals there. I wanna get high heels there again.... Their sandals are just so comfortable!!!!

Oh i just had a lecture just now and i found out that we have 3 more textbooks to come and the whole cost of all 3 books is $163.90!!!! I don't even have my allowance yet!!!! i'll be left with so little cash this month!!! ~sigh~~~ i can't shop like crazy as i initially planned to =P~~~ hehehehe... and ohhh.... yesterday i only had one tutorial and we had career dialogue day!!!!well since i arrived in the institution a bit early before my tutorial, i decided to check out the bank that i work at booth.... Well i saw very very familliar faces and one of them asked me "What are you doing here?" and obviously i study here... he seemed to have forgotten that. Then after tutorials, i met him again outside the lobby, so we talked for a bit... then he asked a qustion i did not expected... He asked "How are the people here like?" and i went "Errr... Ummm... They're ok and blah blah blah" he then laughed and said "You hesitated there" and i just laughed... yes i hesitated to answer how the people here are and then i told him "They're not my cup of tea". i guess in life you do come across a lot of people who are just not your cup of tea...

For me, at first i thought that i would really be compatible with everyone but i've now realised that we all don't think that much alike... My style is that i agree with anyone and anything and i won't make any objections about anything... The main thing is, for all the months being here, i now know that a LOT of people don't really know me. You may think that you do know me but the thing is you don't. You don't know what's going on in my head, and what i really think about things... most importantly, we don't think alike and there is no deeper understanding. And the thing is i don't feel that i can talk about anything with them, plus i'm very weird myself =P. The only person who understands me and whom i can talk to about just anything is my sisters, my bestfriends and several other people.

Well for now, the people in the institution and i have a gap. I guessed that i have learned how to distant myself from a person very fast or better yet i was already distant before anything started... I just hope after everything is done, i can carry on with myself normally. Maybe i'm on the path of self discovery here.... heheheeh... =))... It was good to get that off my chest... =)) I guess, i shall be ok for the rest of the day =)

That's it for now... bubyez... Muahz <33

Sunday, January 28, 2007

UPDATES!!!

Hellew all!!!! Well on friday i had a manicure and a pedicure... i eveen got them to paint and draw on my nails!!!! its very nice!!! Both my fingernails and my toe nails are painted in blac and my fingernails has flowers drawn on them. Its so nice!!!! i wonder how long they will last me though...

On Saturday, i had a physics test related to my course and you know what... i'm so going to fail it!!!! i answered one of the questions wrongly and all i can say is i'm not so good at this physics related subject!!! My lecturer has a laser mouth... Arrgh!!!! Well, i think was only it on saturday.

Today, i went out with my sis and mum... nothing much... I think that is it for tonight... will try to blog more. Muahzzzz <33

Thursday, January 25, 2007

I got it figured out =P

Hellew!!!! i finally figured out how to add in a tagboard!!!! hehehehe thanks to all the ppl who gave me tips =P. Well, i'm in school at the moment, and i'm supposed to be studying... *whistles* hehehehe... i'm side tracking... sufrfing the net when its free... Its such a drag that i can't access Friendster or go on my MSN =( but this is good enough eh? =P.

Plans for today... hmm~~~ i'll probabaly go to work after school and i can't wait for pay day!!! that's it for now... Muahz <33

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

hellew~~~

Hellew, this is my first time trying out blogspot so hmm~~~ interesting =P