Hellew all =). My last day of work for the second time was on the 20th July 2007 and it was a happy day for me. The day started off when I was about to go down to the filling room. In the hallway outside my office, I met my boss, she saw me from the lift and she said hi to me... I decided to carry on walking to the lift, she then blocked my path, wherever I turned, she kept blocking me then she said, “I need to talk to you”. I then went in, and this is how the conversation went.
BIG BOSS : Today is your last day right?
ME : *all smiles* Yes
BIG BOSS : Are you really leaving today?
ME : Yes
BIG BOSS : Did you really quit school?
ME : Yes
BIG BOSS : You’re looking for a permanent position right?
ME : Yes
BIG BOSS : What is it that you want out of this bank?
ME : *leans forward* Career progression
BIG BOSS : I can’t promise you that in this department as you know it is very hard for me to make some of them permanent. Like last year, Zai was offered permanent and just recently, Rosie.
ME : OK… *Thinking in head: What is she trying to get at?*
BIG BOSS : I can’t assure you that I can give you a permanent job by the end of this year.
ME : Actually, I sat for a test in HSBC and I even know my test results. I’m just waiting a call for an interview.
BIG BOSS : Oh… but its not like they will call you so soon, so in the mean time, I want to buy your services and if you get that call, and you want to leave the next day I’ll let you go, at least you can earn something while waiting.
ME : I’m still leaving
BIG BOSS : * looks at me pitifully* I really need you and I rely on you.
ME : I’ll think about it and I’ll give you an answer by the end of the day
BIG BOSS : Thank you, think about it and make sure you see me at the end of the day ok.
ME : Ok, I’ll think about it.
There was more to that conversation; she made it sound as if though I will not get that job at HSBC. I am very determined to get that job and I will, its just the matter of time, both the big boss and the officer is on leave till the end of the month, so I’ll probably get a call by early august and I do not think that it is such a long wait and besides, I get to relax a bit and be a DVD junkie, for the next week or so.
After that, I asked my sister from HSBC to give me a call; I really needed to consult someone. There were plenty of questions running through my head; should I just stay till the end of the month? Should I just go? If I stay, doesn’t that mean that she wins? But one thing was for sure, I am not going to stay. After I consulted my sister, I knew what the answer would be and nothing will move me of my decision.
I lingered around the office, laughing and making jokes with Rosie and Talib. I do not have pictures this time round because I just didn’t want to take any; it would bring back all the memories and would make it harder. I had lunch with Rosie, we talked a lot. And after lunch I had a bit of excitement… hehehe… nothing big but it was something ;). When Rosie and I got back to the office, it was about 2 p.m. and as I was about to go down, the cute, tall, Chinese looking and bottle framed glasses wearing DHL guy was in the hall way, I automatically went back in and held the door for him. He then smiled, I stood at Talib’s desk, and I thank Talib for not being there at the time… heheheh… The DHL guy then puts his clipboard on the desk, and he said “Tulis nama kita ah”, I grabbed Talib’s pen and wrote my name on the paper “KeL”. At that point, he was actually on one of his knees… heheheh… romantic right?!? But it is not what it seem to be, his bag was on the floor, he takes a peek of my name and says, “Oh, KeL” he then unzips his bag and puts the package on the desk, and zips his bag up, he then stands up and said “Ma Seh (short form for Terima Kasih) and I just smiled at him. I could have actually gone out and go on the lift with him because I was headed to the first floor, who knows more action right? But no… I decided to stay on and make Rosie jealous. That whole time, Rosie kept peering at me from her desk and when he left, she went “eeehhh… Kambang eh, I don’t want to talk to you” hahhahahah we then made jokes about the guy, if one of us were to have sized him up in the lift…hahaha… he is so cute! I should have just said to him, you’re cute but I didn’t, I let that fish go I guess but it was good =). The day dragged on and it was almost time for me to face my big boss for the last and final time.
I then filled out my claim sheet and put it on my other officer’s desk which is beside my big boss. I then sat on of her chairs across her. She was actually calculating something at that time and so I just waited. By the time she was done she smiled at me and this is how everything went.
BIG BOSS : And so?
ME : I would like to know, why are you only offering me now?
BIG BOSS : Well, at that time, you seemed unsure. But now, you quit school and you still quit your job, then you must be waiting for something. So that is why I offered you, I really need you for the retrieval project, even if it’s just for a month.
ME : Oh… Ok
BIG BOSS : So are you still leaving?
ME : Yes
BIG BOSS : Why?
ME : Honestly, this is how I felt. That day when I came to you and after we talked, I felt heartbroken and hopeless after what you have told me. Mr. H, offered to talk to you but I said no because I should just carry on resigning.
BIG BOSS : Oh I see, actually when people like me talk to our workers, we hope that they are on the same wavelength as us but it seems that you got the wrong idea. You are not hopeless…
ME : Ok… *Thinks in head: I didn’t say I was hopeless, I said I felt hopeless. Was she not listening to me?*
BIG BOSS : You are a good worker. You seem to finish things ahead of the time that we set. And you are very accurate and you are responsible when given a task. It’s a complement you know…
ME : Ah, ok…
BIG BOSS : So that is why I’m still holding on to resignation and I have not given it to HR.
ME : I actually gave my resignation to HR. And the reason why I gave you one months’ notice was so that you would find someone new which I can personally train myself. I also did not want to find you someone new because I’m afraid that the person cannot give you what I can.
BIG BOSS : Oh no, we won’t blame you if that person you recommended messes up everything. If a person is given a responsibility, they should know better and be responsible.
ME : Oh ok
~ Big Boss actually yaps on about a person in the bank who recommended her their not so great part timer and that within 3 months he would be jobless and stuff ~
BIG BOSS : So are you going to stay?
ME : *all smiles* Nope, I will still be leaving.
BIG BOSS : *stares at me speechless and pitifully*
ME : *gives my biggest smile ever*
~ There was a pause during that time, an uncomfortable one too ~
BIG BOSS : Ok lah, it’s your decision and I can’t make you change your mind. So now, we would have a lot of backlog to clear up.
ME : *laughing* Well, I have nothing to worry about, it’s not my problem.
BIG BOSS : *holds out her hand* thank you KeL for your service, I want to wish you good luck with HSBC.
ME : *shakes Big Boss hand* Thank you very much.
And so that was how things went and after that I laughed and joked around with my office mates for a bit before my sister miss called me. My former officer, Lillian, called me up to ask what happened and I told her the whole story. So before I left, I said all my good byes, gave the ladies the necessary hug and kisses and a last hand shake to the men and I salam-ed Jamain, he’s a really nice guy and I was off, leaving the bank and never to return. I felt satisfied for what I said to my big boss, I hope she has learned her lesson to NEVER turn down a good worker or hurt them when she sees one.
And so that is the ending of one of the chapters in my life, a new one will be starting soon. I’m actually going to plan a barbeque picnic at Tutong beach for me and my young ex-colleagues… wait more like close friends, on either the 11th or 12th of August. So we can catch up on things and have a bit of fun… I’m really going to miss them all; all the time I spent getting to know each and one of them… ~sigh~ I’m getting all mushy and stuff here. I’ll just end this here. =) it’s a new beginning for me =). Bubyez… muahz <33